“God breaks no barriers; neither did He make them. When you release them they are gone. God will not fail nor ever has in anything. Decide that God is right and you are wrong about yourself.”
From A Course in Miracles
I could not wait to share the above quotation with you when I experienced the freedom that came with accepting it as true if only for a moment.
To decide that we are wrong about ourselves is not as easy as it may seem. We are very enamored of our character in the dream– that one that bears our name.
In ACIM Jesus tells us we must deny the denial of truth since the truth is already present and available. Awareness of it is blocked only by our belief in the world and the body– the denials of truth. Neither exist according to A Course in Miracles.
You can see why there is so much resistance to doing this Course and following a Teacher that points us out of the dream. Shall we continue?
Yesterday, while taking a walk in the park, I was inquiring into a specific matter that was keeping me quite involved in the dreaming of the world. As anyone who believes they are actually living here in the world I was also following the ego’s plan for solution. Blame somebody. Anybody.
Just then my right mind kicked in, and I was wisked off the battleground. This is not something I can take any credit for other than having devoloped some willingness over the years to be mistaken about everything I think I know about any given situation. It has take time to learn that all problems are the same problem.
From above the battleground I could look back at the dream without any investment in the outcome. This looking without judgment at the dream is forgiveness. We obviously cannot forgive from within the dream. The ego, who wants to be special, does not forgive. It can however pretend to for the sake of its self image.
A few things became clear to me as I looked back from outside the dream.
First, all relationships, are opportunities to get over ourselves. This includes the ones we think we hate and the ones we think we love. Either one can be used to strengthen our image in the dream. Our self concept, good or bad, kind or mean, loving or unloving , is what the ego is. When we are identified with it we are asleep and following the ego’s plan.
From the ego’s point of view everyone is used to build our self concept. The purpose of special relationships, be they hate or love, is to keep us preoccupied with our self image be it one of pain and suffering or one of pleasure and self congratulation. What gives value to the dream and its dream figures is our self concept, aka specialness.
Our special relationships– those that exist between two bodies– are the means that the Course in Miracles has given us for our awakening so we ought to pay attention to them. Said more accurately we ought to pay attention to how we use our relationships to build an image that we are promoting of ourselves. That’s what makes them special. They satisfy a need that we are not up front about.
Everyone who thinks they are living in a world has special relationships. To deny that we do is to deny the means of our awakening. The ego, sensing threat on this topic, will counsel that you are the exception– you do not have such a thing as a special relationship. That is called denial.
The special relationship we are talking about is really not about someone else. It is about the relationship we have with our ego, our self concept. The “other persons” that appear outside and separate are no more real than our own self concept. This is our magical fantasy that we call living. It is the ego’s plan to keep individuality. As long as we remain preoccupied in the dream the ego is safe from us learning that we have a mind and that mind can chose against it (the ego). It is a brilliant plan but fortunately it is not God proof.